my thoughts are ffs i miss u so much its tearing me apart. a few of ur old mates av been in touch, donna from coventry n nat n lisa from bromsgrove, good to hear from them but i had to tell them u had fcukin died, that was hard n all the pain has come fooding back. its not fair every1 else gettin on with their brill lives n all iv got is pain,pain,pain. you should have got married, we talked @ me walkin down the aisle, you will never have kids of ur own n i know u would have been a brill mum, but i was robbed of that by scum who av got away with murder basically but i wont forget or forgive. 1 has already been found dead in stourport who was grassing every1 else up to try save himself n look good to me caing me mate, he woulda got a slap just for being a grass. love n miss u more each day xxxx lauren is really being naughty at moment but all i can do is be patient n giv her loads of love. love you my angel, u were just like me more than the boys, u were a rebel like me not takin any crap from any1 a real chip off the old block. love u my angel n havin more tats done this week love always my angel nikki xxxxx