well nearly a year, im dreading xmas and 20th, iv promised lauren i will get up early xmas morning and do the santa thing n hand out presents as i used to with you kids when you were young i didnt do it last year i just got drunk and cried all day, il be emotional this year and il spend time alone with you but gotta at least make lauren happy, she really misses you and talks @ you a lot,shes braver than me, noahs ark finally came to see her weds after id spoken to school, she made a lovely stocking and put a letter card etc in for you il bring it down xmas day. xxxxxxxxxxx