This time last year my life was shattered, emotionally bruised, emotionally battered, had to go to the hospital to see my daughter nic, didnt have time to say goodbye, it happened so quick, one minute she was with us the next she was dead, now a year has gone by, how time has sped, i love you nikki, God the pain is so bad, but i try to remember all the mad times that we had, this year instead of presents i put flowers on your grave, just for lauren i carry on, try to be brave, but i cry every day, like a baby i weep, i dont eat, i just drink and i can not sleep, i look at photos of you then start to cry, i look at your grave and then i want to die, sleep tight my angel, until i"m there with you, how the hell i"m going to cope i havent a clue, i"m angry,i"m upset, i"m at my wits end, it shouldnt have been you, my daughter my best friend.